Fear in My Veins

Woken up by an uncomfortable sensation, I stare out into the darkness that made up my room. The air felt wrong and I didn’t feel alone. Hesitantly, I look down at my feet. Eyes peer above the ladder leading to the top bunk where I lie; dark, dangerous, and familiar eyes that seem to still the whole of my body. I can’t move and I can only pretend to be asleep. Had I imagined those eyes. Has my mind gone insane? I wait and listen as I hear the creak of my door opening slowly and closing again. Suddenly, I can hear my heart pounding. What had just happened? Why was he in my room and why was he just staring at me? Tears stream down my face as fear washes through my veins. 

Deserve Forgiveness

Desperate for forgiveness

without clarity of mind.

There is what you wish to get

and what you will actually find.

I am not trying to erase time

but I’d like to forget mine…

…atleast sometimes.

When one does not know them self

how can they act accordingly?

I miss you dearly

or atleast the person I thought you use to be.

When you learn who you are 

maybe I can meet you.

But this person infront of me,

unfortunately,

will not do. 

Don’t Give Up – It’s Near

She only sees reason to blame

herself for all of the pain.

She knows if she leaves

it will still remain.



She shades her eyes from the light

hoping it is all just a lie;

She will wake up and everything

will be alright.



It already hurts too much.

What if she just messes up

just like the other times: 

she gives up.



She has been searching for many years.

Everyday hoping she is near.

She needs strength and instead 

finds fear.

It’s A Fine Time For A Rewind

It’s a fine time for a rewind.

It’s a nice day, why won’t the sun shine?

It’s a nice smile but your eyes lie.

I’m tired of the games.

I’m tired of the selfish gains.

I’m tired of no one knowing my name.

It’s a long song and you sing it wrong.

It’s a clear day but you walk in the fog.

It’s a short path yet it takes too long.

I’m tired of the lonely days.

I’m tired of the one track way.

I’m tired of apologizing for what I say. 

Scars

“Le moribond” by indiae on fuelyourphotography.com


                                          I see stars when I look up at the night sky                                            

And I see scars when I look into your eyes 

Im just hoping one day you will learn to know 

Scars are what make us grow


I see blue sky when I look up in the day time

You can’t deny the people’s heartless crime

Im just searching for recognition:

We have more than just destruction.

Alive

How can you make something so great, 

throw it away and act like it’s fake?

I guess you’re just use to it;

I guess you just can’t admit:

It’s too hard for you,

you’re not strong enough, 

and you can’t pull through.

Or maybe I’m just waiting for you to realize;

Or maybe I’m just waiting for you to open your eyes

and notice that I’m alive. 

It’s Too Late

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I thought I was blind

cause I couldn’t find

your love for me

there were no signs

You claimed it was true

yet made me no proof

so how could I say

I love you too

Through all this time

through all these lies

I finally see

the truths you hide

Now it’s too late

and you are lost

on the other side