Love Posion

I feel ashamed that I am not strong enough to move on.

I’ve never kept it far from my mind though it’s been so long.

When I feel close to someone, I try to find the comfort I need.

Only to regret the vulnerability.

Vulnerability makes me feel anxious and dumb.

Why am I so scared to trust and allow myself freedom.

Can I ever not care or care without pain. 

Because this pain is keeping me from what ever remains. 

Light is my home but I live in darkness.

Am I one of the people who can flip the light switch?

Fear in My Veins

Woken up by an uncomfortable sensation, I stare out into the darkness that made up my room. The air felt wrong and I didn’t feel alone. Hesitantly, I look down at my feet. Eyes peer above the ladder leading to the top bunk where I lie; dark, dangerous, and familiar eyes that seem to still the whole of my body. I can’t move and I can only pretend to be asleep. Had I imagined those eyes. Has my mind gone insane? I wait and listen as I hear the creak of my door opening slowly and closing again. Suddenly, I can hear my heart pounding. What had just happened? Why was he in my room and why was he just staring at me? Tears stream down my face as fear washes through my veins. 

A Salient Plea – Repost

Under the shadows of a tree
thou will fall to his knees

with a salient plea

to the true grace of thee.

Unblind my eyes and allow me to see.
Untie my hands and set me free.
Unsew my lips and let me speak.
Give me strength because I can no longer be weak.

The world is dark and fearsome
and stranger evil I know is to come.
We need the mighty and righteous,
to awaken and fight the thriving darkness.

Deserve Forgiveness

Desperate for forgiveness

without clarity of mind.

There is what you wish to get

and what you will actually find.

I am not trying to erase time

but I’d like to forget mine…

…atleast sometimes.

When one does not know them self

how can they act accordingly?

I miss you dearly

or atleast the person I thought you use to be.

When you learn who you are 

maybe I can meet you.

But this person infront of me,

unfortunately,

will not do. 

Don’t Give Up – It’s Near

She only sees reason to blame

herself for all of the pain.

She knows if she leaves

it will still remain.



She shades her eyes from the light

hoping it is all just a lie;

She will wake up and everything

will be alright.



It already hurts too much.

What if she just messes up

just like the other times: 

she gives up.



She has been searching for many years.

Everyday hoping she is near.

She needs strength and instead 

finds fear.